I am trying to fix my life

happy birthday to my roomate!!

2005-05-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

today is a special day for my roomate angeline. it is her birthday. since she didnt want anybody to come to celebrate it with her, I surprised her alone at 12 midnight with tiramisu cheesecake from cheesecake factory. i bought 2 slices and placed them on a white plate. was thinking of decorating it nicely but the whipped cream got smudge all over the place, and it looked horrible. ya and i almost burn the whole kitchen down trying to light up the un-lit-able candle. soo zang. hahaha.
yesterday afternoon rico was at an eletronic shop name best buy and 2 italian men, who claimed that they were models for armani, approached him. they said that their wallets were stolen the night before cuz they brought hookers into their room and the morning it was gone. they said they had a flight in the evening itself and they had no money nor credit card to pay the car rental fees, and hope that rico would lend him $700. They were very convincing and they said they would get their father to return him much more and in addition they would give him 3 emporio armani jackets for a temporary compensation. Rico believed cuz they had such a strong italian accent and he even talked to their dad. he is so gullible. so they agreed to meet up in the airport in the evening. rico asked for more proof. he saw their passports and driving licence. but they had no tickets and they claim that their luggage and ticket was help by someone who will meet them later. rico began to doubt them. he already withdrew $700 and he went to the airport and asked the car rental counter whether the car was theirs. it was. ok maybe he should help them. cuz their father are going to open a ferrari dealer in us and he could have received much more than he gave. but he was scared, so he hid in a corner and saw the 2 italian men waiting for him. He wasnt sure whether he made the right decision so he left. what a story right. he is feeling so guilty now. maybe he should be less paranoid.
i am doing my last lab report of the semester during my bio lecture which i skipped. hahaha.

week of horror

2005-05-02T10:18:00.000-07:00

hey girls.. last week was so hectic for me. i have 3 tests and the worst part is that they all fall on the terrorizing thursday. it was just so chaotic and everytime i want to start studying, i dont know which subject to do first. i have math to practise, bio to memorize and sociology to read. damn i was so stressed and i was so looking forward to get over with all of them and just go enjoy the weekend like nobody's business. i made a policy that i wasnt going to touch any books or any pens. hahaha.
guess this time my hard work paid off. within a day i know my bio resuls and today got back my math. i am so psyched about getting good marks. hahaha. finally ok finally...(give me a pat on my shoulder pls..hehe) i got 79/90 for bio and 90/100 for math. hahahaha. A's A's A's come too meee... i was so desperate to get an A cuz this exam just determines whether i get an A or B.
maybe i shouldnt have gotten an A for math cuz i was kinda cheating. It was an open book test cuz there was a table of integrals with 120 formulas on it that u can refer to, and i didnt know how to do. so i actually flipped to the homework section and saw i did my math. hehehehe. oooppss. everybody in the class was practically cheating. this hongkong guy beside me was passing notes to his asian friend and they werent even sitting next to each other. he was throwing notes on the ground and his friend picked it up. and in addition to that he had the solution manual for the homework qs in the text open widely on the floor next to him. what a loser! he looks like one also actually..
did i tell u guys tt i book my ticket already?? i am going back on the 4th of aug and before that stopping by tokyo to jalan jalan... hehehe soooo excited. I wanna work too in summer so i can earm money and shop..probably be a lab assistant or something.
take care girls! heard got hand foot mouth disease. take care of my lil cousins too. heee =D

Christianity

2005-04-22T21:46:00.000-07:00

guys go to www.xiaxue.blogspot.com . she is one famous blogger in spore and lots of ppl red her sites. it's really interesting what she wrote there. one of her entries was about the 20 yr old guy who died in the accident in singapore. i am sure everybody heard about that. she attended his funeral and although he wasnt a believer of Christ, his funeral ceremony was conducted in a Christian style. I think the way the ceremony was conducted was very disrespectful to many ppl present there. I read that the pastor was actually trying to convert ppl there to become to Christians so they would go to heaven when they die. This is a bit ridiculous i think. Honestly, I dont like the way some Christians go around in malls and question ppl about their religion and try to spread the word of God. I mean yes the disciples of God should try to spread the word of God, but i think religion shouldnt be forced on ppl. And why do my religion do this to ppl? I am disappointed at some of the cases that i encounter and i hear about ppl critizising Christians and our behaviour. But i dont think my faith is strong enough to make a comment on my religion. Dont worry, i still believe in my savior.

party time!!!

2005-04-03T17:31:00.000-07:00

there was this indo party last night at some club and lots of people were talking about it for the past weeks. I wasn't planning to go since i cant go in anyway cuz the age limit is 18 and above. but we can only consume alcohol if we are above 21. ok in the last minute, i decided to go, just to see how is it like lahh...
i borrowed my friend's id, who is 24 yrs old. i was just afraid that i wouldnt pass as a 24 yrs old lady, since i got such a baby face. Anyways we were queueing and then one of our friend, who was one of the organisers, asked us to go in front cuz they allow the people under 21 to go in first. Suddenly, it struck me that i was supposed to be 24, so i cut the queue and went to the adult line. i was so nervous. my heart was beating so fast and i was actually shaking a little. when it was my turn, i took out "my ID" and pass it to the guy. he asked me where is the age on the ID, i pointed it out to him, he looked down on me and he said "ok", and put on the tag(to be able to consume alcohol) for me. wohoooooo!!! i passed!! hahahhaa... my friends and I were laughing like mad when i got in.
the club was so lousy, with only one dance floor, a few seats and a lounge underground. although the dance floor was big, the whole club is just a double-storey, square box that people dance on. kinda dumb. my friends and I were dancing and dancing..yes i was dancing ok.. to some rnb music.. luckily it's not trance.
the girls there was dressed so skimpily. I think it's like to sexually attract guys, a bit zang lah.. one of my friend even saw this girl giving a guy a blow job at the stairs where at least one person walk pass every second. so disgusting lah...
i felt giult abt going clubbing cuz i wasnt able to go to church this morning. if that's the case, then i think i'd pick church then clubbing. clubbing is just not my kinda thing, but honestly i did have fun there.

imitation of life.

2005-04-01T14:44:00.000-08:00

hey girls. i had such a bad start again today. received my bio results and didnt do as well as i expected. hopefully my essay will pull my grades up. But i did improve so i think i should not give up and carry on with it. study even harder is possible. so disappointing sometimes when i studied so hard, slept only 2 hours and didnt score as well. oh well.. i am not THAT smart and i think i should study smart then. i felt so demotivated just now, but after some thought i think i should be determined and not give up.., ok ok i am trying to convince myself here.
goes out to u girls too..even if u screw up a test, u still have a shot at the finals so dont give up ok!! love u girls!!

A box full of chocolates!!

2005-03-31T18:09:00.000-08:00

hey girls!! omg omg omg omg i am soooooooooo sorry for not blogging for 1 month and 16 days now... dunno why but i am so lazy to blog. I will try to be more frequent so i can keep u guys updated k.
anyways i joined a club called Alpha Gamma Sigma(AGS)..damn the name is soooo uncool. but it helps me transfer to a univeristy so whatever lah... ya in the club i am supposed to do community service such as packing food for homeless ppl (did i tell u guys that there are so many homeless people here and they go around with alot of junk that they pick up from the bin and push them around in a supermarket trolley... poor thing..they stink too) , reading books to kids in primary schools, giving tutors, etc. So far i went for 2 events and one is to pack canned foods, cereals, milk and those nutritious food for people..think it's old folks..it's pretty fun as we just have to stand there and each of us are assigned to a food item and the conveyor belt just moves pass us so we actually have to put the food fast. We didnt have a break until 2 hours later.kinda tiring and sooo boringg...some more so early and i am still half asleep. I cant imagine those ppl working in the factory for at least 7 hours everyday 7 days a weeks, 30 days a month and 365 days per year.. dam their life must be soo boring.. unless they have a vibrant social life.
the next event is called the "creek's restoration". As the title says, it has something to do with a creek.. so i thought we just had to clean up the creek and that's it. But in fact, it was totally different from what i have expected. We went to the california national park and we were supposed to dig out the mustard plants and some other short plants from the ground and remove the whole root. That sounds like fun and easy right...but my attire was so not appropriate for the event. I was wearing a tight-fitting t-shirt, 3 quarter jeans and a pair of slippers, when everyone else was wearing track pants, a loose shirt and a pair of track shoes. Everytime i sit on the soil, cuz i was too tired from squating down, my butt-crack can be seen. so irritaing and my butt is so huge as u guys know. It was so hot on that day and there was so many sticks on the ground poking my leg, and worst of all sooooooo many bugs!!! beetles, earthworms, roaches, millipede and arhhhh!!!! everytime i dig the soil and loosen it, something will crawl out. i didnt scream ok..i just jumped away.. hehehe. One of team-members was digging and he saw a rattlesnake..soo cool. it was white, black and orange and pretty long...sleeping though so didnt attack. we were digging and pulling for 4 hours straight and it made my muscles soo sore. worst than 2.4 run.
in addition to all that, i have to sell see's candies, which are actually chocolate bars. it's part of the requirement. have to sel 4 boxes, 24 bars each and $1.25 per bar. so hard to sell.. in 2 weeks only sold 1 box. 3 more to gooo.. chocolate chocolate for sale!! so stupiddd... hmpphh

HELLLOOOO

2005-03-16T22:27:00.000-08:00

hey heyyy soo long never updatee..ya i have tests and essays to do soo didnt really have the time to go online.. everything is soo messed up here rite now and i cant seem to get it things working well..
again my bio grades didnt turn out that well but i did very well for calculus 2. hehehe. and for bio, i studied soo hard!! memorised and all but what happened?? this kinda things just make me lose hope, in myself and God. I feel like what is the use of studying so much when God doesnt even help me..that was what i was feeling a few days ago. I feel like crap. feel like a sinner and that i will burn in hell. i rmb what yvonne said abt doin ur best and God will do the rest. WHERE WHERE WHERE??? i dont see itt... BUT i was totally wrong. the blessings that God gives doesnt come immediately., but he did promised us and he will keep his promise. and then i got a "miracle". after weeks of bugging my old white teacher to change my grade, he finally did.. yay!! so i got an A my calculus class last fall. it just pushed my GPA up. i feel more confident know. and i believe in myself and in God more now. in church last sunday, the pastor said that no matter what happened, we must not lose our faith, however we must make it stronger.. so true. all these "hints" that God gives just come at the perfect time.
anyways julianna called too..hahha so surprised. I love u jul!! although i cant talk to u like most of the time..u're greatt..hehehe
My friends here are also growing apart.. everybody's living their own life.. people can seem to be bothered about other ppl and i am so pissed with that. why cant they care just a little bit about other ppl? and if they need help they go to what they called as their "friends". so irritaing. it just doesnt make sense and it's they abviously dont give a damn about this friendship. whatever.
ok me and rico update: yes i know i knoe u uys are all anticipating and waiting for this part. we're doing good. we dont go out so much anymore and i think we do understand each other more by not being together as much. he's samrt and he helps me with my math. he's great. cheers. hee.